A christmas mess.

headaches are killers!

lucky it got better.

Aquamarine Song; Mizuiro No Senritsu

My heart paints a melody left behind for me.
There might not've been an eternity for the two of us, but
I"m sure we can become happy!
Overflowing from my heart's piano...
is the aquamarine melody.

Look at the twinkling sky as it melts away.
Until the sound of the last wave's crash vanishes
Just keep on looking only at me.
Because you're someone I love, there are things I just can't say.
The feelings I can't fully convey to you, I now
ride upon, singing in soprano,
within the sunlight, like an angel dancing down from the heavens.
I musn't look to the sky of the past, but
tomorrow, the first sound of the waves will shimmer
just like a handbell.

The aquamarine fragments of our memories and even tears will melt in the wind.
And the sound of the waves in my heart won't vanish.
Because that's where only our memories lie.
Even like rain on a sunny day, when there are times when sadness will occur
there's no way I'll lose to my destiny.
I've given forth all my love, and in soprano
I sing the aquamarine melody.

Look at the twinkling sky as it melts away.
Until the sound of the last wave's crash vanishes
Just keep on looking only at me.
Because you're someone I love, there are things I just can't say.
The feelings I can't fully convey to you, I now
ride upon, singing in soprano

nice song, (:

He broke his own heart and I watched as he tried to reassemble it.

I can't wait for next Saturday!

so damn bloody excited.

shopping today with Mum was awesome, bought so many things la, (:

clothes, clothes, and more clothes.

stayed over at cousin's house yesterday, slept at 6am.

imagine the panda eyes!

and my "kiu moh" is coming back alr, resulting messy curly hair. ):

very troublesome leyyyyyy.

oh well, I'm gonna play my psp then!

BYEEE.

Not only you and me.

I'm so bored. /:

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with a teardrop.

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

this is the MOST saddest, MOST boring holiday I've ever been through.

I've never liked holidays, nope, never liked them.

BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

I can just die alr, rotting almost every single day.

my life = too pathetic until no words to describe la.

With god as my witness.

tongue piercing/eyebrow piercing? which one better? :O

(I anyhow asking only.)

Let's get fuggin' wasted on friday (:

You are the only exception.

her head's gone, so THERE :)

I hope this picture haunts YOU at night. (^^)v

:3

okaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy.

screwed.

==

I look freaky in all pictures, and

I enjoy looking like that. :D

(overdue pictures and overdue stuff)

Life's pretty much crappy these days.

my body dislikes me, cause I've been feeling dizzy, and feeling nauseous.

and so with Huimin, went to WM got the earrings.

Far east, had lunch, walked about till our feet ached.

Bugis, bought some stuff, walked about, she bought a acid-washed blazer, and me for the first time in my life bought some vintage dress.

LOL. so UN-MIRANDA. :O

JP, walked a little. homed.

went to Cheers and bought Brown Rice Green Tea, fate! :)

mum's in norway, no one at home but Ariel ==

cooked maggie mee for myself, but I didn't pay attention to the noodles and they turned out disgusting.

cause the noodles absorbed to much water, turning them to some udon size BLAH.

watched Bokura ga ita a.k.a We were there, awesome anime.

I feel so tired, really really tired. emotionally that is.

I keep wondering what is going through your mind right now, as I'm left clueless.

I don't even know what you want, or probably even what I want.

I hate waiting, waiting waiting waiting for a reply or an answer.

ily, not, bess, still.

but Miranda's seriously going mad if life is still gonna be like how it is now, all confusing and empty.

why can't we be like last time.

Your pushing and pulling me down to you.

awww man, my mum's going to Norway soon, ):

unfair ley, won't be stay at home much. i guess.

): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

can't wait for this ROTTING month to end, been rotting every single day, so sick of computers.

been re-watching/watching animes.

surfing the net for lame stuff.

(I've been ranting a lot about this, BUT..)

I'M GONNA START SAVING $$$ from now on in order to get Paramore's albums cause their lyrics ruleeee :3

- Everyone wants happiness, nobody wants pain, but you can't have a rainbow without a little rain.

Brick by boring brick.

Rock on PARAMORE! (^^)v

changed the songs in my playlist alr, enjoy :) ~

-rotting at home, listening to Paramore's Brand New Eyes album on Youtube.

Ba da ba da ba...

Give me attention, I need it now.

City Hall > Peninsula > Esplanade > Raffles City Shopping Mall > Plaza Sing > Pomo > Vivo > Sentosa

fake one: Hawaii > China > Singapore

and so, I didn't even get to go out at 7am cause I dozed off. ==

woke up at 11.42am, prepared, ate a little. RAINING like mad. a very sad day.

met Clinton at chinese garden, trained to city hall.

went to Peninsula, only walked a little there, wanted to slack at the bridge but it was pouring.

went inside esplanade, walked about, chatted, wanted to look at albums so we walked to Raffles City Shopping Mall and checked out HMV, talked a lot about movies and bands O:

suddenly talk about CHUCKY! haha, I luv Chucky la! :D

trained, went to Plaza Sing and went to a shop that Clinton brought me to, and there was a Chucky Doll, holding a knife worth $3000! :D

went to YAMAHA(i think ==) and he played I don't love you - My chemical romance on the acoustic guitar :)

awesome shitzx.

so awesome, then we went to a new shopping mall called Pomo (weird name O_O)

my lips were cracking, we bought drinks and all, sat down somewhere and enjoyed :D

I wanted to buy that Brown Rice Green Tea, (cereal-like drink) but don't have, not fated la ):

Trained to Vivo, bought $3 ticket to Sentosa, walked a super long distance to the beach, wanted to walk on the sand la, but the whole day raining, so the sand also like ______.

and then we were tired, my shoes were hurting my foot, we wished we stayed at the resort there! D:

haha, Sentosa felt like Hawaii! so we "went" to Hawaii.

walked near the Merlion, played at the fountain thingy stood under the LOUD bells.

Clinton did a hawaiian dance in front of me at a super random moment! :D

can die laughing manz.

Walked back to the tram thing, Sentosa was playing a cheena song so it felt like we're in China, back to Vivo, sat at the rooftop, chatted, chatted, actually I was mainly listening to Clinton's life stories, so sad I didn't have any nice ones to share.

your life is interesting uh :O

My tummy was grumbling cause I only ate maggie mee!

went to SuperDog, and DAPAO, bring back to the rooftop, sat down and ate my 2 chicken rippers :)

heard more life stories, and I realised VIVO plus SuperDog brings back too many memories. ):

it was getting cold, and by the time we looked at our phone alr 10plus.

thanks for yesterday! I laughed a lot :)

trained home, parted at Jurong, reached cg at around 11plus, my mum scolded me on the phone.

I was about to reach my condo alr.

suddenly don't feel like going home.

then I walked to the bus stop.

decided to stay at granny's place.

didn't feel like taking bus, then walk/run all the way to mrt station cause it was alr 11.40plus pm.

the people at the control station say mrt CLOSE liao. WTH.

I didn't wanna miss the last bus, ran/jog/walk all the way back, suay suay step on MUD.

almost slip and fall.

MY VANS SHOES?! damn.

didn't bother to look at my shoes, checked the board, it was alr 11.53pm and the last bus was at 12.17am

LUCKY~

board 187, suay again, saw WP, O_O

granny was worried and waiting for me at the bus stop, my mum was super mad at me for doing this.

and going out alone at night is super DANGEROUS. trust me.

exhausted. bathed. granny was nice and dried my hair. slept.

because of me, I cause my mum and granny to get so worried.

):

and SADLY I still can't forget ____________.

Running away.

I realised I can't think about the good times I've had with you anymore, cause they hurt like needles now.

prickly and all. sighhhhh.

3rd post for today, madness.

wanted to go out just now at 3plus am with Clinton to idk where but end up never, too early, gonna go out at 7am with him. I want that li jia chu zou that feeling ley. sighhhhhh.

and btw, thank you Norman for those hilarious youtube videos! O:

When Your Gone.

I love you two guys!

I wish you guys were like my brother or something, accompanying me on msn (to not sleep), giving me advice, telling me nice stuff.

It helped a little, but my eyes are still hurting and its still red.

THANK YOU CLINTON and CHOON YUAN (old old senior who graduated from Dunearn) :D

if I could give you something, I'd give a bear hug to each of you followed by a cake baked by me! (though i'm a noob at cooking.)

Clinton can go out? Peninsula like we agreed months ago? I need to go out. sigh.

IHATEESCAPETHEMEPARK. damn escape, i swear i wont go there anymore. (but i still miss escape)

Heart hurts, eye hurts, i want a remedy.

GG, remember this? ily, not, bess.

you came up with that weirdo phrase and it was nice, but its been months since i heard that.

soooooooooooooooo, ily, not, bess STILL. ):

I won't shed another tear over this again.

yeah its been 6 whole months!

long, gruesome, sweet, lovely, crap, bullshit, heaven.

I know how you feel, cause I'm a irritating stubborn bitch and all.

but losing feelings happens to everybody, even me (last time that is), I REALLY mind if you wanna _________ but its okay.

I get it. (:

idk why am i bullshitting here.

maybe Friday the 13th is really cursed or something.

I think God is really being very unfair to me, so many things happening in one time.

how am I going to cope?

"OH MY GOD." this is the only thing i could say after seeing that msg.

you made that BET, i had that bad feeling inside me and it really happened like some kind of deadline.

like you were awaiting this day, 13/11/2009, Friday.

I knew it, its like a BOMB in my heart, I SWEAR LAST I'LL EVER CRY OVER THIS.

CRYING, CRYING, SHIVERING. I want this crying to stop. this came too fast.

AHH i'm bullshitting. bye.